I killed myself, but didn't die completely. What actually died was my mind and all the pain in my heart. I was still physically alive, but everything else died and the whole world looked different to me afterwards. I escaped and the freedom from the pain was awesome. Let me tell you a secret. You don't have to physically die to end it all. This really works! You will be so glad when the old you is dead because you can't go on another day like this... Can you?